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I am missing my girlfriend so much.
Haven't been in much of writing/posting mood lately. School's been pretty consuming, but on the bright side, the hard work is paying off. Mid-term is looking to be above a 3.0 cum GPA, which, at the Academy, is pretty dang good.
But I still miss her...
Haven't been in much of writing/posting mood lately. School's been pretty consuming, but on the bright side, the hard work is paying off. Mid-term is looking to be above a 3.0 cum GPA, which, at the Academy, is pretty dang good.
But I still miss her...
Dear God, what have I gotten myself into? O_O
So I'm obviously still here. Seeing as I'm posting on my DA page. Disregard last post, it was made in the throes of a deep depression. Life is much better now, especially since I'm out of that hellhole they call USAFA.
In the meantime, life goes on as it always has. And as it will continue to do. Meh.
I have been exposed to the PONIES. OMG. Something tells me I shouldn't like this show as much as I do, but... but... it's SO AWESOME.
Besides, watching Ponies makes you 20% cooler.
And to make it all official, I have created a sketch of myself if I were a pony. Yes. I have officially delved into the darkest depths of bronydom. God help me.
The Final Straw
So here it is: the moment when I finally realize I was never good enough. I was never good enough for anyone; for this school, for my ex-girlfriend, and when my parents find out I'm getting kicked out, they'll realize I'm not good enough for them either.
I just wanna drown my sorrows in alcohol, but the problem is they'll still be there in the morning. Guess I could solve that by adding three percocet to the mix... and hopefully never wake up.
Hopefully I won't ever post here, or anywhere else again. Hopefully I won't wake up in the morning.
It all comes crashing down
I wish I could say that in the 7 months since I've updated, a lot has changed, but aside from a new school year and the loss of my beloved car, nothing really has. Not for the better, anyway. I've posted only one thing on here in the intervening time, and I may just shut this thing down forever, seeing as I never use it.
I feel like I'm sitting on the edge of this cliff, and all it takes is just one push, one little thing going wrong for everything to come unbalanced, undone. I'm holding it together but only barely. I feel like I had my one shot at love and I ruined it somehow. It's my fault; it has to be. What other explanation is there?
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Nothing is the same anymore.
Well.
Since the last time I posted, my life has undergone many radical changes. Not the least of which is the fact that I am no longer in a relationship with my girlfriend. Well, I guess she's my ex-girlfriend now. It's still so weird having to correct myself like that after 3 years...
Other major changes include being confined to base, being unable to wear civilian clothes, and many other restrictions that make my life that much more miserable.
Did I mention that that all happened about a month ago, a few days before finals?
So yeah. My life's been hectic.
Good news is, Christmas break was awesome (sorry, I say Christmas. Feel free to s
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i miss you too! but u still need to post something again soon.